Old Friends

So continuing to live in the past, yesterday I had lunch with an old friend that I had not seen in 8 or 9 years. And by old friend, I mean someone I was totally in love with, a complete groupie of, hero worshipped, and yet all was unrequitted so I settled to be his friend.

He and I would talk for hours on the phone. He always had the best perspective. I have quoted him often. We would talk about religion and life and I would talk about boys. He was a great listener. He also just wanted to be friends.

He was also smoking hot!! He was a runner and not one ounce of body fat. He still doesn't have any!! I bet his BMI is like 2.

He is also very giving. He works with kids, he does charity events. He teaches Sunday School. We would pass notes at church!!! He and I grew up in the same town, but he is ten years older than me. His dad is also a preacher. His little sister was also head cheerleader at our high school just like mine. So we had so much in common, so many life experiences that we could compare.

Yesterday, he told me he was very immature back then. I said I was too! It was embarassing to think of how I followed him around. But then he said he was completely in love with me. He was too chicken to tell me or trust me. He was crazy to let me slip away!!

What an ego boost!!!

I didn't know what to say. Of course, he said it was a good thing because I would not have my daughter if things had been different between us. Which is true.

I know life happens how it happens. Again, I don't have regrets, but oh the nights I wasted loving him and thinking he did not see me as more than a sister!!! It really changes my perspective on the last 10 years of my life. I wonder who else might be in love with me??