<<==<<==<<== I'm with Stupid

I have been thinking she is so stupid. She has known for over a year. Doesn’t she have any pride? Why doesn’t she leave? Why is she staying where she isn’t wanted?

I sat at Starbucks for 4 hours. I kept hoping he would come by…stupid stupid stupid

As I sat, I looked at pictures of my beautiful daughter. I realized unconditional love is what really matters. She is my life.

I am the one that has been stupid, with no pride, staying where I am not wanted…stupid stupid stupid

Driving to church on Sunday morning, I saw a man with an orange shirt on a Harley. I thought he changed his mind. He was surprising me…stupid stupid stupid

Our love is so amazing. I was starting to believing in fate. I felt so wonderful being loved. I thought he understood me and accepted me the way I am…stupid stupid stupid

I am the one that was alone Christmas, alone New Years, and will be alone Fourth of July AGAIN…stupid stupid stupid

I still believe he loves me. But he loves her more. He would rather hurt me than hurt her…stupid stupid stupid

My parents liked him. I introduced him to my daughter. I never met anyone in his life. They would all hate me think I was a whore even threaten to kill me..stupid stupid stupid

All the dreams, all the plans, the houses, the vacations, the trips, spending every night in his arms, The Happily Ever After…stupid stupid stupid

I will try to move on, but I know I will never heal.