If I could

If I could I would tell I love him more
If I could I would look into his eyes more
If I could I would make love to him one more time
If I could I would kiss him more
If I could I would have one more conversation
If I could I would have ended it better
If I could I would be in his arms right now
If I could I would not cry anymore
If I could I would not picture them together
If I could I would make this pain go away
If I could I would not curl up inside
If I could I would get out of bed
If I could I would be able to breathe again

I can't and I won't but I wish so much that he would