dark day

i am not sure what i am doing. i feel like nothing will work out. i dont know where t go from here. it seems i have made a mess of it all. my job was supposed to be temporary. i would move and there would be something else. but here i sit still alone still in this same job same house no real friends no one to talk to unable to face the future. knowing this is all there is?i wanted so much more. i wanted to mean so much more. i wanted to be valued.i wanted to be loved and needed. and wanted. i feel so worthless. and numb