It Was 20 Years Ago Today

Sgt. Pepper taught the band to play...................I love that song.

However, it was actually exactly one year ago today at 7:24 pm that I found out my husband hand cheated on me.

A lot has happened in that year. I got fired, I got a new job, I lived with my parents, my mother in law lived with me, my beautiful daughter turned two.

But one thing has not happened. He has not made me feel special and wanted.

I have grown so much in this last year. I have gone from falling down in the middle of the floor crying for hours to someone who learned to ride a bike and play tennis and most importantly who I am inside--okay I am still working on that one!

I plan to give him an ultimatum when the baby goes to bed tonight. I can not live unloved the rest of my life. I have been loved and I won't go to bed each night wishing to feel special. I plan to give him a week to decide.

Will you still need me will you still feed me when I'm 64 -- another great Beatles song and if the person I am going to be with can't say YES immediately, I can't be with that person.

ADDENDUM
I don't want that! I don't want to have to ask. I want Tom Cruise jumping on the couch kind of love. Okay, he's crazy, but I want to know I am loved and not be thinking about what happens when I turn 65. I know I look so young thanks to the Mary Kay moisturizers but really it is not that far away and we all know that Paul had some one legged bad luck around 65!

I guess I don't know a good Beatles love song of what I want. Maybe Imagine ........You may say I'm a dreamer but that is just by Lennon.........

If I am going with Lennon, "Woman" is great..............

I dunno but I don't want this anymore!