The Past

I had lunch with a friend today............from 25 years ago. How much do you think someone can change in 25 years? Personally, I have put on 30 or so pounds (emphasis on the or so). I did not remember how tall he was either, or did I just get shorter?

It was fun to listen to someone else's memories of me as a pre-teen! Gosh, I was silly. It was also fun to hear how we have learned from life and grown up and changed.

I wonder why people are always so drawn to their past. Reliving the "glory days" You know, back in high school when I would...................

I did not intend to go to my 20 year high school reunion. I felt like I needed to lose weight before I went and I didn't so I wasn't going to go. I also thought I was so miserable in high school! Pimples, not popular, always on the outside looking in on the fun. I didn't really keep in touch with many people from high school and the ones I did were not going to be at the reunion.

However, at the last minute, I bought a hot red dress and went!

I drank and danced with the hubby and generally just let my hair down to have fun. The cheerleaders and drill team were all there and all skinny. The jocks were there. Some of my friends from choir were there. It was so surreal. I have spent some time reviewing my yearbooks. All the signatures say "to a real sweet girl" and "keep in touch" Ha!

I think it must be human nature to look back on the past. I try never to let myself have regrets. Did I make some poor choices? Yes, I did, but they make me who I am today. If I had not kissed so many boys and made better grades where would I be today...........would I have gone to a better school and be rich?? I doubt it, but if I had would I be happy?

Despite the sh** I am going through right now, I am really happy with my life. I love my job, I love my family, and I have good friends. So I guess I just wouldn't change the past.